On March 18th 2022 I will release a new single titled “It’s All up to Me”. In the song I sing about digging in the ground looking for a magic seed that will magically change my life. I also sing about knowing that I’ve got to look inside for what I seek and what I need, and that it’s up to me to dig down deep inside to find the very best of what’s in me. But the truth is, sometimes the very best of what’s in a person is not enough for the rest of the world. And when your ability to achieve your goals depends on the rest of the world deciding that the very best of what’s in you is good enough to please them, it won’t matter how deep down you dig. If you don’t have something down inside that can awe people, or amuse them or impress them enough to make them applaud and acknowledge your existence, the only thing that is all up to you, is if you’re going to accept that you just don’t have what the world is looking for, and so accepting, focus your energy on doing what you love to honor yourself, recognize and celebrate your own personal achievements and keep your spirit and soul joy focused and fulfilled.
I think I’ve accepted by now that I don’t have what the world is looking for. But I continue to create and express my existence and my aliveness. And I continue to try pitch my songs to playlist curators who continue to decline to add my songs to their playlists. It is always disappointing to be denied, but if I’m not good enough in the eyes of the rest of the world, it is what it is. People have the right to like what they like and hate what they hate or to be indifferent if they are indifferent.
I do believe that when something is meant to be, the world can conspire but the world will never stop it from happening. And if it never happens, it’s because it was not meant to be. It seems that it’s not meant for me to be a singer songwriter of any relevance in the world. The best of what’s in me might be good enough for me, but it’s not good enough for anybody else, and I have to accept this fact and learn to live with it.
Life goes on…